That thought I can’t follow to it’s end breaks like water
with the force of the sea
onto cold rocks and drifts away leaving me in the
fog and mist baptized against
My eyes sweep the floor as if your
words could fall and be found arranged
so when I get to the
I will scramble to put them together
tell you what you want to know
You see me do this and it’s a place
you know you can’t go.
Just know that the love has not been burned
out of me.
but, one more thing…
In this place I swear at the devil
on approach in his long black coat as
he dangles a silver garrote
moves very close
makes me promises
wants me to choke on my pride
make me painless
live or die how I want
If I would just say some words for him.
Pain. It’s the only thing.
I know not to answer, try to look away, except
he put his arm around me when all I wanted was to be like the man I was once or thought I was or was I dreaming and dreaming of… what am I now ?
the devil gets his last words in, “one in the pipe waiting for you mother fucker see you soon!”
Fire and lightning run through me.
I will stand up again to tell you
what I’ve learned
even though I lost your words
I am certain that by
love , we don’t always know
what we’ve been saved from …